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highthere are no goodbyes.
my mother had earlier made the statement of the year. she had said:
"mama rase add maths muffin dulu takdela teruk sgt. malas je dulu."
homg ma. i would give you a golden statue for that. but ma, that is why i love you.
and then homg, i found out that sweden is not qualified for next year's world cup finals! WHAT THE FUCKERY?! i had tears in my eyes, for goodness sake. there will absolutely be no reason for me to watch world cup next year. sob.
and homghomg. they're going to air high school musical 3 on disney on the fifth of dec. when i saw the ad, i was squealing on the floor! my sister was like, "weh, adik pun takdela excited gile mcm muffin." seriously i love the hsm franchise so much! watched it at the cinema with nana, dedo and ziera and rase sgtlah sedih bile the movie ended. no more high school giddiness.
oh lagu alyah yang tak mungkin kerna sayang (apparently one of the malay songs i think is quite bearable to listen to) masuk final juara lagu. woooot.
okay. i should stop spazzing now.
and oh, if so nyuh shi dae ever lists malaysia as one of their stops for their tour, i would want to gooo! since my parents' permission is not a problem and my sister pun tak kisah to teman, i wouldn't miss it :) ziera, jom pergi? keke.
- location:same ol' home
- emotion:
giddy - melody:lady; modjo
when dark skies hover,
and the thunder rumbles,
breathe in the air,
and you'll find me.
and the thunder rumbles,
breathe in the air,
and you'll find me.
i'm currently accompanying my sister who is studying for the spm exams which starts tomorrow. looking at her bring back old memories of taking the exam. oh how i despised having to sit for spm. all i can say to my sister is, sabar jela. four weeks and then, you have six effing months of rest. my dear sister; you genius prick, with your brains and God's blessings, insyaAllah, you'll get through this just fine. i'll always pray for your success. i heart you so, very much.
and for me, i am finally finished with my finals and i am hell having fun at home. i go online, i write, i watch the telly and i get to sleep as long as i fricking want. i am determined to master the guitar during the holidays, go jogging, and oh yeah, watch 30 rock! therrrjrr :)
and brainf. 30 seconds to mars released their new video, which is so frickin amazing, and after school is back, bringing sexey back! i am floating, officially.
i'm off, ppl.
- location:home
- emotion:
contemplative - melody:self-thoughts, again.
if you ask me why,
i will tell you;
because, just because.
i will tell you;
because, just because.
i have resorted to studying at the student lounge, in front of the telly because i'm that bored.
i've listened to everything on my mp3 and i don't even have my laptop with me now.
i cannot wait for one more week and everything will be done with.
three more papers to go and i'm off for the semester.
mahu tgk posmen dari syurga! oh terlalu indah untuk aku hadapi.
i've listened to everything on my mp3 and i don't even have my laptop with me now.
i cannot wait for one more week and everything will be done with.
three more papers to go and i'm off for the semester.
mahu tgk posmen dari syurga! oh terlalu indah untuk aku hadapi.
ask me again,
and i will tell you;
because, it's you.
and i will tell you;
because, it's you.
- location:second home
- emotion:
exhausted - melody:crazy in love; beyonce
of lost loves and infatuations;
i will forever remember you.
(yg ni bukan untuk awak ye bella. keke)
i will forever remember you.
(yg ni bukan untuk awak ye bella. keke)
to my dear bella,
ohmegoodness! you are finally 20 years old today. a very quick dedication to you my larghve;
so many things we have been through la bella. laughter, tears and even fights ;p if i have the chance to turn back time and redo all the things that i did, i wouldn't change a thing because then, i wouldn't heart you the way i heart you now :)
all my love on your birthday sweetheart! i'm sorry for the no-surprise, no-present celebration. (sorry you had to bear listening to nana and me singing happy birthday in tons of different languages) ;) i'll get you something later! 2 and 0 are just numbers and i hope you will stay the way you are with all the birthdays to come, with all the birthdays we are going to celebrate.
i love you byk byk my dear bestfriend, soulmate and yep, a pain in the ass ;P happy birthday again <3
may God bless you and i wish you will get all the happiness in the world.
ohmegoodness! you are finally 20 years old today. a very quick dedication to you my larghve;
so many things we have been through la bella. laughter, tears and even fights ;p if i have the chance to turn back time and redo all the things that i did, i wouldn't change a thing because then, i wouldn't heart you the way i heart you now :)
all my love on your birthday sweetheart! i'm sorry for the no-surprise, no-present celebration. (sorry you had to bear listening to nana and me singing happy birthday in tons of different languages) ;) i'll get you something later! 2 and 0 are just numbers and i hope you will stay the way you are with all the birthdays to come, with all the birthdays we are going to celebrate.
i love you byk byk my dear bestfriend, soulmate and yep, a pain in the ass ;P happy birthday again <3
may God bless you and i wish you will get all the happiness in the world.
voila! i just wish that 12th november would come sooner. cepatla. nak tgk some jae action. haha.
adoi sakit perut. cepatla exam habis.
- location:here
- emotion:
weird - melody:self thoughts
when i walk next to you,
do you think of me, the way i think of you?
do you think of me, the way i think of you?
finals are finally here, just when i remembered as if it was only last week that i entered the semester. time moves so quickly when you take your eyes off it, but i'm glad that i've enjoyed the semester to the fullest. oh i just cannot wait for the finals to end because i have so many things to do; writing, catching up with the missed episodes of 30 rock (omeffinggoodness. this show made me laugh my guts out!) and most importantly, exercising, or to be more specific, jogging! i signed up on the netball team for the mahallah for the intermahallah sports competition and i pray i will make the cut. *fingerscrossed!*
in my two years here in the campus, i've never, never ever ever ever, went around and appealed myself to people. unless you consider me being the emcee during the taaruf week and acting in the, ehem, unislamic, play as appealing. but yesterday, i had to sing in front of a group of about, forty people, together with my sociology classmates (and embarrasingly, they're boys!). i really don't want to talk about the details because it was plain embarrasing, but just let me say it was something and i enjoyed it.
goals for next semester: a) dean's list (that will always be the priority) b) get into the netball team c) join the theatre club and d) obviously, enjoy myself.
i'm staying positive positive positive
arabic's first up :)
- location:home
- emotion:
crappy - melody:heartless; kanye west
there's something about you
not your smile
not your laugh
not the way you talk
not the way you glare
not the way you smirk
not the way you walk
but there is definitely something about you.
shoot. my sister finished jodi picoult's handle with care in merely ten hours. wtmf.
and now, i'm nursing a sudden cold which i got from my mummy. aiyoo ma.
goodbye assignments and helllooo finals.
- location:home
- emotion:
sick - melody:tired of being sorry; ringside
yes. exactly. FINALLY :)
after what seemed like ages, my all-time favourite band, 30 SECONDS TO MARS, is finally releasing their new album! wtmf. i waited for almost four years and it's finally here. goodness. i love you guys very much lah.
2 and 0 are just numbers. and so is the age. so wtf let it be 20 or 29 or 37, i'll never leave my youth behind. it was definitely an amazing and changing phase of life :)
thanks for all who wished and to my best friends (you guys know who you are), i love you guys so damn much for the surprise. it was wonderful. i wish we can forever celebrate birthdays together <333
after what seemed like ages, my all-time favourite band, 30 SECONDS TO MARS, is finally releasing their new album! wtmf. i waited for almost four years and it's finally here. goodness. i love you guys very much lah.
2 and 0 are just numbers. and so is the age. so wtf let it be 20 or 29 or 37, i'll never leave my youth behind. it was definitely an amazing and changing phase of life :)
thanks for all who wished and to my best friends (you guys know who you are), i love you guys so damn much for the surprise. it was wonderful. i wish we can forever celebrate birthdays together <333
- location:cc sejuk
- emotion:
cold - melody:rising sun; dbsk
when i tell you i'm happy, it's because i'm smiling
when i tell you i'm in love, it's because i'm giddy
when i tell you i'm a smart biatch, it's because i am and i am confident
i tell myself that i am everything that i am because i love my own being and i don't give a fuck about whatevr anyone wants to say
just finished my sociology mid-term and i'm rambling. yes, i'm not a good thematic speaker that i tend to ramble at the most weird times. maybe i'm rambling because i am tired and obviously, mentally exhausted. no, not stressed, just tired. stressed is not in my vocab. i need to write. yes, write something like a poem, story, or probably a research proposal (guh) just to know that life has yet gotten to me. i'm very much me.when i tell you i'm in love, it's because i'm giddy
when i tell you i'm a smart biatch, it's because i am and i am confident
i tell myself that i am everything that i am because i love my own being and i don't give a fuck about whatevr anyone wants to say
and yes i miss you two too much
that my heart bursts everytime the two of you aren't there
"i have to hand it to you, your perserverance is surpassed only by your narcissism"
"and there you have the secret to my success"
lol much b. aku cinta sama kau <3
that my heart bursts everytime the two of you aren't there
"i have to hand it to you, your perserverance is surpassed only by your narcissism"
"and there you have the secret to my success"
lol much b. aku cinta sama kau <3
- location:here
- emotion: exhausted
- melody:baby baby; snsd
my hands reek of onions because i just peeled one basket full of them. it's for my mom's rendang tomoro so yeah, had to do what i had to do.
later, i have to bake chocolate chip cookies. goodness i despise baking.
no, i'll rephrase that. i just hate being in the kitchen.
anyway, am taking this chance to say selamat hari raya and all apologies from me if i've hurt anyone's feelings in anyway :)
may God bless you in this wonderful celebration and may we will forever be under His mercy. Amin.
pictures of iftar together with me old pals :)
celebrated khalizah's birthday too! may God always bless you gal <3
foolish girlies ;)
forever under the spell of b. i larghve you too much.
- location:home
- emotion:
bouncy - melody:attitude; suede
wrong. plainly wrong but i cannot stop.
bj is totally my new otp ;)
i love you like shit, b.
but the other one will forever be my ohteepee, nuff said.
i love you forevahh.
bj is totally my new otp ;)
i love you like shit, b.
but the other one will forever be my ohteepee, nuff said.
i love you forevahh.
helped mom in the kitchen today, which is something that should be written down in history since i'm such a self-professed kitchen-phobe uhuh.
- location:here
- emotion:
awake - melody:bookends; simon & garfunkel
my parents took me to jalan tar today
and hell, i really thought today is one of those days that i thought will NEVAR end
and what really pissed me off were those people who bumped into me and didn't say a single effing word
haven't those people heard the word "courteous"?
and everytime i bumped into someone, my "excuse me, sorry" weren't that sincere because i was so damn tired
sorry but how can you blame someone who was so tired and who was unwillingly dragged to a place called jalan tar? goodness dammit.
and hell, i really thought today is one of those days that i thought will NEVAR end
and what really pissed me off were those people who bumped into me and didn't say a single effing word
haven't those people heard the word "courteous"?
and everytime i bumped into someone, my "excuse me, sorry" weren't that sincere because i was so damn tired
sorry but how can you blame someone who was so tired and who was unwillingly dragged to a place called jalan tar? goodness dammit.
- location:home
- emotion: exhausted
- melody:lachata; f(x)
where is the dream without passion?
where is the smile without the curl of the lips?
where is the happiness without the skipping heartbeats?
where is the music without the dance?
where is the fun without the laughter?
where is the melody without its notes?
where is the infatuation without the wink of the eye?
where is the insanity without the clap of the hands?
where is life without faith?
where am i without you?
where is the smile without the curl of the lips?
where is the happiness without the skipping heartbeats?
where is the music without the dance?
where is the fun without the laughter?
where is the melody without its notes?
where is the infatuation without the wink of the eye?
where is the insanity without the clap of the hands?
where is life without faith?
where am i without you?
- location:home
- emotion:
creative - melody:my destiny; dbsk
tired*blows dust coating the blog*
too long. too effing long since i last updated but wth, whtever. it hasn't been a good day at all, minus the fact that i get to meet two of my sweethearts, dedo and nana after sooo long. how long has it been, loves? two days? yeah, it's been long. happy friendship day to all anyway. may we remain friends forever and may the future brings much more fun and happiness into the bonds we share :)
okay now just let me start rambling on my day.
first, fuck all the motherfucking rumours about dong bang breaking up. since i don't know the real story, i should really stay silent but with my obvious dong bang-bias, i gladly point my finger to sm. goodness sm. dong bang are not dogs! they're motherfucking human beings and they can do whatever they like. revise the fucking contract and don't you ever, ever, dare treat them unfairly. but if, and i mean if, they boys go on their separate way because of this, i'll never forgive you. i mean, the whole fandom, which means 800000 fans and i'm sure more, won't forgive you.
call me obsessed but fuck it, i'll do and love whatever i want. stfu.
second, *points at you* yes, you. hear me out. you can say i'm crazy, insane, stupid and bullshit me however you want it but i won't stop loving them. and no this is not about dong bang. this is something else. at least, i have a passion i can indulge myself in without disturbing anyone. i didn't bother anyone and if i want to keep on doing it, then just let me do it. if you don't like me or judge me for doing it, then go on because i don't give all the damn in the world. the consequences are for me to handle on my own.
judge me all you want but you're still dealing with the same me.
wow, that felt good. at last, this blog has finally come handy.
well, it's not always dark clouds and thunderstorms, right? looking at the bright side, i have my jung yunho to cheer me up. oooh you sexy motherf. i love you forevahh! and your, um, you know who ;p
okay, i have a literature review to be done. so, um, ciao.
okay, i have a literature review to be done. so, um, ciao.
- location:here
- emotion:
enraged - melody:doushite; thsk
i'm one step closer to have my braces! well, not really close considering i have to extract my wisdom tooth, get all the wiring done before getting the real thing. but really, i'm excited! i got this elastic separator at my back tooth where it creates a gap so that they can put the wire around my teeth. i am currently pelat right now :) but the bad thing is that, i cannot eat properly! i can't chew solid foods like i used to. aww shucks.
anyway, two days to go and it's back to the campus! i miss everyone but i never want to leave home :(
- location:home
- emotion:
good - melody:none
dorkyHOMG i couldn't believe it happened. ROFL!!! seriously it shocked the hell out of me. it was so funny and um, TOTALLY random.
my FATHER attempted the MOONWALK.
yes. my FATHER. hell yes he did. it was before dinner and all of us were busy preparing the dishes when he suddenly did some movements which are totally familiar and i was like, "ayah, what are you doing?"
and he, being totally tak kisah, nonchalantly replied, "oh, i was doing the moonwalk,"
and i went to the back and LOLed XDDDD
ahh. a day in the 43 platinum household.
currently watching wimbledon and i cannot help but wonder, where in the world did they get all the energy to run all over the place? and the game is like, two hours long! amazing. their energy is effing amazing.
a quick p/s to dedo, sorry sweetie i tak bls sms you because i'm out of credit :P haven't heard 2NE1's new song yet but will do, okay? xoxoxoxo and infinity more. and make space in your email. there are stories coming your way ;)
dedo, ziera, nana, nadea, bella, iqa, rindu you guys. my days are bleagh without you girlies :) love ya~
- location:somewhere here
- emotion:
hyper - melody:sorry seems to be the hardest word; blue and elton john
5pm
i laid in bed with the damn textbook in my hand, a terrible period pain shooting through my body. i was merely 23 hours away from the paper but i couldn't push myself to study because of the pain and fatigue. then, bingo! a sudden insight popped into my head and i decided to go to ziera's and nadea's room to study together with them. i took my shower and got ready to dash for the girls' room.
6pm
in a pair of jeans, my 5 ringgit nightgown as my top and a loose black scarf covering my head, i scrambled for their room and the first thing i told them was that, "you girls are the only ppl i can turn to!" they nicely invited me into their room before i had to help nadea with her luggage since she's moving rooms next semester. the period pain took a terrible turn and i ended up sleeping until 7.30.
9pm
dinner and iqa came. that's when the study started. questions of 'how', 'where' and 'why' were exchanged among us. i had to study while lying on my back since the pain had yet to recede. after we finished a chapter, we were like, "ok break time!" and we watched some videos on ziera's laptop.
12am
the discussion went on with completion of about three chapters when i made up my mind to sleep over at their room. i rushed back to my room and took my blanket and pillows together with me before i made my way back to their room. we studied another chapter and took another break. then i was like, "fuck it. i need to sleep even for five minutes,"
2am
nadea woke me up by wiggling my fingers. "oi bangun study!" she said and i was like, "nooo! nak tidur lagi!" then, with a heavy heart, i went back to ziera and iqa and i was like, "iqa, i know you're damn tired so just give the pages to the answers of the study questions," and she immediately agreed. the moment i jotted down everything, i scrambled for the nadea's bed once again and i slept again.
4am
i woke up with a start when nadea switched off the lights and i scrambled from her bed but she was like, "takpela. tido jela seblah i," and i was like, "tak bley. need to study," so sat next to ziera, who was surprisingly fresh because she took a cup of mocha which she claimed 'ade caffeine' and she was not sleepy. so i did a few questions before i surrender again and said, "i swear to God i can't study anymore. ziera, i'm just going to copy down your answers for the creoles and whatnot," thank goodness she agreed and i put my blanket on the floor and slept until 7.
7am
woke up and continued studying. ziera was still wide awake as she studied while nadea started her day with a quick browse of the internet. i studied a chapter or so but my fucking eyes betrayed me so i took a quick nap.
9am
the dreadful studying continued. we studied and studied like hell since we were like five hours away from the paper and was panicking like shit. ziera took time to dance to one song while i studied on her bed. we exchanged notes and discussed over and over again.
11am
apparently, i felt so disgusted with myself since i had not yet taken my shower. i excused myself and went back to my room. after a quick run through with all the chapters, i took my shower and got myself prepared to go sit for the exam.
2.30pm
right outside the hall, all of us were like, "tawakal jela weyy". all of us were damn scared to the core and shaking like crazy and nadea was even like, "jap. aku kene bertafakur kejap," LOL. and then, the doors of the examination hall opened and we dragged out heavy legs and hearts into the hall.
5pm
i completed the paper at 5pm sharp and i turned around to find, surprisingly, ziera still in her seat. since she has always been dubbed as the 'girl yg slalu kuar awal time exam', i was surprised to see her! nadea and iqa went out early so didn't get to ask their opinion on the paper. and hell, the paper sucked big time. ziera was like, "takpe. tawakal je. it's not like we didn't study!" i merely sighed but my mind was too excited to go home and hell, i got over it by the time i was in the bus on my way home.
and yes, that's the hardship that we all went through on the night before the HEL paper. tough subject but amazing lecturer. really helpful :) excuse the grammar mistakes because i am too excited to write the whole thing down. and maybe because i am sleepy right now with a great urgence to pee.
ciao.
- location:home
- emotion:
sleepy - melody:no air; jordin sparks and chris brown